No Angel of God's design

Heavy is hours heading, with every second bleeding

poisoned by your lies until i couldn't arise

i stare at the blood, i taste of its so sombre and free

becoming the existence finally the one you wished me to be

I have crawled in your trash and ashes

while your spit and laughter been the only touch

chained by my words, you made to my torture

only for reason to crush

I..your fallen angel

crushed againsst the ground

on my knees with folded hands

You're but the demons in my head

slay me as i pray

upon my only faith

of devastation

cause shroud illusious

as an angel

Arise my wrath and defy,live by my sword and fight

remind the sapid once of fire,but spare my tears to another night

death and cold once beath my hart, til love led it astray

but was not born to feed the hollow, to be on my knees and pray

Stand up tall, no devil or man shall become your fall

you, master of your own design

your own doom to rest upon your rage

fuck them all with your hate

fold your hands around your sword, and dry your eye

there are better ways to die

Cause truth nude,I..am your demon

now crush against the ground

on your knees,fold your hands

pray for another angel

to save you as i slay

your faith upon

but,my devastation

I,the only angel in your head

The Revenge

You hear my steps through night they echoing

hear my whispers even my evil grin

you turn around but dark is thicken

by my lust of revenge you are now stricken

Time has come hourglass empties from sand

approaching you with an axe inn my hand

you see but a shade a shadow of me lurk in the dark

but know who i am,know my laugh and innate bark

you know my thirst my desire to drain your blood

make this alley your obituary,a lurid flood

I slay and i shred til gutter is red

satisfied first when you are deead

Nighteye dance white,shimmer in the red splatter

night rests again so deathstill except from your dying rattle

No one hear my steps fading away in the night

hear my laughter or sees my rapacious sight

tenderly i smear my axe beautiful and red

fervid runs my blood of pleasure now when you are dead

written 1988

Alone..

Alone...

Alone..another fall of blackness,
another surge of echo
resting me to sleep,
another song of memories
hidden in a shell
and a scent of winter
to touch me deep.

Alone..whenin another stare
out over the ocean
another hope to crush into
horizons painted in daze
another dawn to brake my hart
a song of nothing to be lasting,
kiss a dew upon my face.

Silence

I hear it,,The breath of the nothing,with coat of emptyness,,moving around me,trying to hide me,to eat his spirit into my soul,,

Hands of dusk,touch me to a silence,where there is no space for you,,

Whispers, so soft and seductive,snares me like a lover,impale hungerly my flesh,,

Kisses of oblivion,gnaw his song into my hart,tongue me winter,to freeze and stop, keep my beating heat in his grip,,

I bleed in his brutalic desires,i loose my last feelings onto my nails as grip him close,,i bleed of passions,to satisfie his thirst, as he drink me complete from devotions to you,,,

My eyes isn't crying nomore,when he ferally,,pierce me deep,,only my life is pouring,out over our bed,,so white,finally pure,,floats out,cover the grave,fade ever memorie with the winterly quilt,,terminate your name,,,

I love him,,in his cruel rapturous arms, he rapes me, he kills me,,

Dying, i hear echo of my voice in the afar memories,in desire and hunger,,scream his name,,

just before dawn and extinction,,

spring of my silence,,,..

Kiss of Death

I have yet only awaken

with one of eye,

only scriptured yet in my

aliven blood,

Within me

is so much more,

this is only clothes

to adore,

gilded skin over my

vulnerable evil stain,

I will soon be breathing,

voluptuous stare as you

are feeding,

my every words

of beaut,

pearls i picked from

souls,

brutal truths

i let astrayed my hart,

Only one was

there to shatter

my winterdepth,

and blizzard it with

brutal talon,

my prey

of such a beast as I

Valedictory

Wrapped obscurit timberly,
whisper mi beating cavity,
mi hart,profund snare,
darkens the mist and air,



Briden fall prides in griefadorn,,
gasp of death
motion thru thicket n thorn,
,,enblazes in her ever last breath,..



Withered leaves melancholy,
ode wilterness brings hymnody,
beneath her,draw veil,
shelter restful bed o so tranquil,..


Before long the blooden stream,
internal frosten thrill,
echos of dream,
soar eras of past,forlorn days,
tremor to memories,
once more ov stolen lips caressfly breeze,..


Deathcolderness flakes,,
fall silencly so wide,
hidens ancient paths of malignity,
harvests,ragefully stride,
prints,brittle starved love's beauty,,
,,finally mend hartignited aches,..

If I could kiss my self...

Seduction crawls all over me, thrills like a devious tongue even inunder my skin, Eat me with passions, burning lusts to rest in my soul, veil me breath of pleasure within,

Viperous black float my hair, bridally cover my breast and hips, desireous longing your touch to undress, as you taste the sins from my lips,

The second when that sharp spear, penetrate me as my starving nails seekig your fear,,,,

And i wish, I could fuck my self in that same rage my hart beat of wrath in me,,

penetrate me

fuck me raw

rape me

violate my cold soul

Bestialic, tyrant my every emotional sense,,

til i bleed

til i die

And find my beautiful embrace, to comfort, in devoted illusions,,

kill me

As i massacre me,seductively in my selfish greed of predatory urges, until in the afterglow when, i will kiss my self,,

taste my death

scream my name

kiss me my love, with passions more alluring than any lie you ever had to know too,,

violate my cold soul

kiss me raw

suffocate my harm breath

rape the last sins from my flesh

penetrate me

fuck me raw

ravage

and kiss me

til i bleed

til i die

She Beast

How much longer do I have to please you all with this surface of me..I am

no woman I am no human creation made by any god..from my hair of Hin

to my beating abyss of sin, I am the prophecy of The daughter..

here to delude,to captivate your poor souls...

Do not ask who I am,it wont else than insane you to know..but I have not

stop breathing yet, I wander among you,almost as anyone else..I know the

rules of humanity by now and I have learn how to serve my own morbid

urges in the silence...

I am horrible,morbid,sick, perverted, maniacal, schizoprenic, sadistic,

possessed by infernal spirits,psychic,psychopathic,murderous,

devilish surplus capacitate.. I possess all these profit of talents,

which i prosecute with vehement intelligence...

As the viper,I genetical herith from..I will pale off my skin..let you all

witness it, feel it, penetrate pestilence of odient fear, inwrought your ever

beliefs, haunt you to consciousness of what inveterate venom to rest in the

hart of this primal darkness..

I desire to feast on your stricken screams..it even sexually exites me, just

by the attraction of of thought to disease you all,when disinter all immance

brutal infernality in me..When you finally see me rip off my humble

beaut,,and become the one I am..The of Hell promised She beast...

DARKNESS

Darkness where is your end, when i hear dead beats upon my step..
Emptyness where is your grave, when i find silence heavy just to breath..


I am burnt in the loss of fire,melted by the ice
still i haven't reached where to surrend..where are you my darkness so i can find into your end..


Pain why are you so afar, in your embrace i would not felt this worn..
Dream if you only was here taking my place, i couldn't cry no more..


I am burnt in the loss of loved,melted by the lies
still i haven't started to where i see no end..where are you my emptyness to feel your defend..

...and You..

...You allure..voracious,

dreams i must rape my self,

sharpens your tongue..let it twine,

into every my sense,

You make me starve..for only flatter,

while devour my nocturne heavy of passions,

takes my hand..closing me,

into a dance as were they all tunes of sins...

..and You...

To my Undevoted

When you find you are not breathing,

it is when i am kissing you,
when find you can not sense no more,

is when i am touching you.
If times will come,when you so deeply miss me,

it's cause i did too,and just been there,
and nights when passions horrific haunts you,

then know who's been your mare.

My love,you will never be,alone,in agony,

whenever you cry or brakes,
only every second of tears are yours,

and when your hart aches,
a part of pain is cause i am carving in,

my name therein,
and when it sudden runs of joy,

you will know where your dark angel been.

When earth quake,seas roars in martyrdom,

it is my spirit, mighty, speaking of my rage,
and slightest breeze,awakening you in dawn,

is also my feelings for you,my wish to kiss your face...

COLD

Pain leave me alone i cant stand your touch of me anymore..i know lonelyness,know Cold his second name,know his tongue how it feels over every inch of my skin,know what he crave...

He makes agony to me,touch me with pain,his kisses tastes of torture,he make me feel once again...when i lost my feelings,lost my pride,lost all but hate to still battle by my side...

Then sees there by the horizon,blooden brakening the night,comes my blackshaded Cold,my knight..he caress me with eyes fervid of lusts so savagely,as he sees me move of desires,in his brutal grip of captivity...

I loose my feelings,i loose my fight,i loose all but rage to still battle me tonight...when he make agony to me,touch me with pain,kisses me with torture,make me feel once again...

I feel his lips burn when blizz up along my..memories,he is melting my every sin..in ache i curse my tears,empty my hart,and letting him in...

Make agony to me,touch me with your pain,kiss me as of torture,once made me feel again...cause i lost my feelings,i lost and died,i lost all but Cold to still be by my side...

Strangers Shore

Once, You do were me a stranger,.
,.not yet reached into my hart,.
,.i could let dreams of you,.
,.be air under my wings,.


-Take me just Anywhere, , .



But now i know my home,.
,.now i know my way,.
,.i've seen seasons into your hartweave,.
,.and i've broke my wings
and forgot how to fly,.


,.there at the shore of dreams with you,.

,.all til my reality became my stranger, , .

Try not make me believe in a purpose,any of light in this enblinded world,
when all i have lived in is darkness and shadows,well hidden from yours all ravenous sword.


Try not make me believe that life,in my eyes owns any of same beaut you can see,
when i am raised up in wars,among stones and thistles,and complete desolation been the path for me.


Try not make me believe in existence of love,when brutality is my inbreeded innate passion,
for all my stillborn hart found source of,been nourish for my hate and aggression.


Try not make me believe you would else than judge me,try not to search who is me,when nothing you will find to love of what breathes in me,
my soul is scarred,black,iron empty dreams armours me,my hart knows just of detest and frost of winterraves,and what may would make it beat i dont want to see...


1988

First brake out of self

Still,there's a scream,echoing of agony within,for the splittered life i didn't asked for,,I am so disappointed,and tired at being clothing this soul,with one step in the nothing,one in just memorie,,I try to fall in tears,hide my face in my hands,hunting my inner fears,,but there is noone answering me,so i rip my eyes,there's no need for them,when can not rip my pain inside,or even reach its end,,I want to drown therein,touch it,feel it all,,but seems just hidden,,even for me,,,

I fall,i throw my self down to face this ground under my feet,,nail with insanitys limit,my fingers bloody,digging in the stone,,What am i trying to reach,,braking my nails,braking my soul,braking my nothingness's silence that now have got a name,,This rapid anguish of a scream,suffocated drowned,extincted into this endless space of nothing,tear me up within,,,I feel sudden,how i touch this cement's sense of pain,with every nerve in my fingertips,,i dye it alive,,As i fall down even deeper down in its cruel cold,my shape of unitary dissolves,falling to pieces down,,I want to scream,struggle against,but cant get even a word over my dry sore lips,when sees my helpless lost soul,battle the fate to drown,in my rage rapacious blood,,It is trying to breathe in the annihilating grip of ground,trying to scream,,but all it gets is the lungs filled of roots of this stone,,and the taste of my blood,,,

What's left therein this darkness,when all have died again,now into the silence,and just pieces left of me,,I find my self still sitting there,with teared up fingers,still digged into this now so dead solid cementfloor,,Wondering,if it was just a scream,an echo of memorie,or maybe a loss of longnings,deepburied within,,However it's just debris and splinters,withered and without,any wrath of abilitys to rearise,,I'm just feeling nothing,but the emptyness,when picking up the pieces,for what reason i aint get,,I just feeling,lonely and without,even numb in pain,for my brutal ravaging,into this prison,out,of stone,,I just feeling nosense,noever shade emotions,when even numb for knowledge,why my lips,moists of something salt,,Reaching up my fingertips,to touch,this so new and soft,,,Wondering,am i really liven still,when feel just depravition to embrace me,,nothing,when i fall down a final time,into that floor once more,,with a broken soul,,with a broken will,,with even,broken memories,,,.


23~March~2007